It's amazing to me just how much the universe delivers exactly what we wish for.
My Big Goal for this year was to do public speaking. I don't know about you, but the idea of getting in front of an audience completely petrifies me, or at least it did before.
In the span of a month I have had two speaking engagements where I told my story in front of about 400 people.
I told them that cancer saved my life. Certain parts of my talk brought tears to my own eyes as I relived some of the hardest moments of my life.
Like when my children stayed away from me because I looked so scary after my surgery.
Or, when my surgeon told me she had to cut out many of my internal organs and reconstruct my vagina from my abdominal muscles. Luckily, I didn’t have to go through that surgery, but when she described it to me I wanted to die right there, on the spot!
All of these experiences have brought me to where I am right now, right here. My life has been a gift.
No matter how hard things were when I had cancer at age 4 and again at age 38, I learned how to truly live a life that is uniquely mine, and one that can be shared with those I love as well as the world.
The highlight of the talk I gave at the Queen of Hearts Foundation breakfast fundraiser to find a cure for ovarian cancer was when a woman came up to me afterwards and told me her son had the same cancer I had at age 4 - Rhabdomyosarcoma, a rare, embryonic cancer. Her son survived just like I did.
What is so extraordinary is that this is the first time I've heard someone else say they had the same cancer as me.
Embryonal Rhabdomyosarcoma is so rare that until now I've never met another person or at least someone who knew someone else that had it.
Another fortunate turn of events at the fundraiser was that I was seated next to a woman who organizes TedX Talks in Idaho. She was moved by my story and wants to now help me develop my own TedTalk!
Miracles and synchronicities are popping up everywhere!
Yesterday I went to my bank to turn in paperwork for my nonprofit, The Cancer Core Recovery Project, and began telling the guy who was helping me about my story. I mentioned that I wrote a book to help give back to others who have gone through similar surgeries. As it turned out, his dad just had ileostomy surgery and was in recovery!
“Do you have your book with you?” I just happened to have one copy left and he purchased it right on the spot!
Before I left the bank a woman walked out and said, “Are you the girl with the book? You are the talk of the bank! He was telling everyone about you!”
I left feeling on top of the world! I was so happy I was able to help someone else bring hope back into their life.
Today I would like you to think about how you and your life are miracles for those around you and in the wider world. I would love for you to tell yourself that you are a miracle of love and hope in the world.
Never forget how your presence on the planet heals others. Even if you don't want to get in front of people and speak, I urge you to at least write down your story.
The story that maybe no one else knows and no one else has lived exactly in the way you have.
The more I tell my story, the more I’m actually supporting and helping others!
Telling your story heals others as it heals you, and it is the best way to give back.
And maybe today you're not ready to share it with anybody but if you do want to share it with me feel free to email it to email@example.com.
It is important for you to be witnessed and held just as it was important for me to be witnessed and held by the caring people that I spoke in front of this month.
Click the link below to watch the talk I gave at the Queen of Hearts breakfast fundraiser.
(Due to major technical problems, my right hand woman Kris had to hold the camera and the audio wasn’t so great … but we were able to capture the talk without the sophisticated equipment we really wanted to use!)
I hope it inspires you and fills you with hope and joy.